If it’s not now, i am still hoping that the best will come soon.
This last few days seem so dark for me but in spite of i am still need to breathe and go on with life. This is always this, there’s ups and downs on our way but above all it is how we overcome and how we become stronger.
With all this inconvenience the one thing i am holding on is always finding the good in this very bad situation. We we’re about to find strength when we seen life has stretches us how strong we should be, as saying “We only know how strong we are if being strong is only the choice we have”.
We should always keep this in mind that life isn’t that perfect as we always wanted so better accept whatever we came through. Anyhow, this would not be last. When we have the worst moment just keep it as a challenge. When we also have the happiest moment then enjoy it.
We do not own our life and we should not complain how it was be instead we should be always thankful and very grateful at least in every single day we had given a chance to breathe and to continue our life, that thing is always the best blessings we receive everyday.
God, I am so sorry if sometimes i am not trusting you, I knew that you had so much better plan for me. Please give me the patience and understanding. I’d been wrong for questioning you about why this happen to me, but please i need you now. I knew you never ever leave me. So sorry God!
Excited to wake up today as i am waiting for good news sooner or later this day. I hope God will give this day to me. A good news i am expecting, but wait i think here i am again, the same feeling before expecting then hurt and blame again to God if it will not come.
Oh lord, i knew this is irrational but please forgive me, I am still human and hoping for some changes in life. I still have needs and wants, so i keep on dreaming without ceasing. Hoping that someday, somehow this dreams will be realized.
Okay then, back this day. The good news i am waiting for so many time is a relieve order of my hubby to transfer him to other places and this would means that i am going back home. Yes, i am so excited as they say there is no place like home.
For years of living far away from my family is a pain and a sacrifice. What i wanted is to be back home and live them together. This isn’t yet final but i am hoping that god will let us. I just had a lot of plans when we went home already and i can’t really wait for it.
It is i think very ironic because i remembered before when i was young, i always been wanting to go this place where i am now but when i am here, always wanted to go back. Oh life, how confusing you are, this always means that changes is the only thing permanent in this world and so be it.